I feel uniquely pathetic, worthless, and inconsequential.One thing I spend a fair amount of time and a lot of money on is food. I’m quite a binge eater. Today I had work off so I woke up and drove…May 4, 2023May 4, 2023
Obstinate Ramblings in Response to Barth’s Commentary on RomansI’m reading Karl Barth’s commentary on Romans at the moment, but almost every time I pick it up, I think about how futile it is for me to…Dec 16, 2022Dec 16, 2022
Life as a LurkerI think of myself as a lurker. I’ve always felt sort of like an outsider, but that’s such a cliche feeling that everyone has experienced on…Oct 8, 2022Oct 8, 2022
Thoughts on Mandy and Revenge[I love this movie. I wanted to work out why I love it, but ended up just getting carried away with vague sophistry. Hopefully it’s not…Jun 6, 2022Jun 6, 2022
Winter seems to reveal a darkness that is inherent in the world.I think of this in connection with how I view myself. I have lived an easy, privileged, lucky, blessed life. My current circumstances don’t…Jan 6, 2022Jan 6, 2022
I sometimes have been overcome by a sense of my life stretching out around me like a vast plain of…Don’t let them convince you that this world is just what it seems, or that nothing is as it seems, or… I don’t know much, and I don’t have…Dec 15, 2021Dec 15, 2021
I visited my college campus for a day recently, more than two years after graduating.For a second during my visit I was just thankful that it was over. The good memories carry little weight in my mind. And this leads me to…Oct 27, 2021Oct 27, 2021
“I’m in the Checkout Line of my Life”Copeland’s Blushing came out in February of my senior year of college. It was a rough time. I really just wanted to leave that place, and…Feb 22, 2021Feb 22, 2021
Beginning in the middleI just need to write some stuff. I go through periods where I sort of withdraw, read books, take the dogs for long walks, think about…Feb 19, 2021Feb 19, 2021